I never wanted or even imagined I would be the "because-I-told-you-so-mom" or terrify her kids to raise obedient kids or the mom who orders and commands her kids what to do without any love, compassion and/or explanation. But just today, I became that mom.
Toddlers, Naptimes and PMSing Hormones don't mix.
I was trying to put the little one to sleep just like how we always do --give her milk, lie down with the little one in bed then sleep. But I guess I don't have enough patience today and I just covered my face with blanket and slept as the little one still go about playing in bed. Then I was awaken with her sitting on my already painful shoulder. I just cried in pain because I know I can't be angry or shouldn't shout at the little one. I cried and cried. She played and played. Out of frustration (and pain), I went out of the room and raised my voice ordering her to sleep. (I just can't seem to remember how I should react lovingly to toddlers from all the parenting books and blogs I've read.) She was terrified, went to bed and slept. In a few minutes, she was already sleeping.
I should be happy now right?! But I wasn't. I don't want her to obey because she was scared of me. I want her to obey because she knows what I ask her to do is out of love for her. I feel really bad right now.
I hope when she wakes up, she has forgotten all about this.
Toddlers, Naptimes and PMSing Hormones don't mix.
I was trying to put the little one to sleep just like how we always do --give her milk, lie down with the little one in bed then sleep. But I guess I don't have enough patience today and I just covered my face with blanket and slept as the little one still go about playing in bed. Then I was awaken with her sitting on my already painful shoulder. I just cried in pain because I know I can't be angry or shouldn't shout at the little one. I cried and cried. She played and played. Out of frustration (and pain), I went out of the room and raised my voice ordering her to sleep. (I just can't seem to remember how I should react lovingly to toddlers from all the parenting books and blogs I've read.) She was terrified, went to bed and slept. In a few minutes, she was already sleeping.
I should be happy now right?! But I wasn't. I don't want her to obey because she was scared of me. I want her to obey because she knows what I ask her to do is out of love for her. I feel really bad right now.
I hope when she wakes up, she has forgotten all about this.
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